As a trauma survivor myself, before my healing path, I have lived my whole life out of fear and worries on my insides. But in the outside, I presented myself to the world as a good enough person. An educated, hardworking woman that excels in every endeavor with a polished imaged that has a calmed personality.
My Story…
I have felt in love with being vulnerable because that was the way I found to step out into the world accepting all my exile parts. Those parts of me that I didn’t want the world to see that reminded me of my past traumas. My shame-fear bind had protected me from been seen and kept me invisible, so I won’t got hurt.
I have experience developmental trauma from being sexually abused as child and endured physical, sexual, emotional, and psychological abused. The complex trauma has left me with the aftereffects in my adult life. This is why I feel so passionate about Trauma Recovery Coaching as a way to continue my recovery and help in the healing of others.
God showed me the way to my healing journey. Since I had so much more to heal, in my 40’s life gave me the biggest gift “wrapped in sandpaper” that propelled my being to the healing journey. But that was the darkest most painful time of my life where I felt losing it all. Loosing myself, my marriage, my business, properties, and my sense of belonging in this world. But out of the greatest despair, along came the light into my life through the gift of healing and restoration.
Having a safe space where you can bring forward all your exile parts free of judgment alongside a compassionate witness was the key for my soul. A respectful and loving place where you can “unpack” your feelings and emotions, while in the presence of attunement & compassion, self love and acceptance begin to grow. That is the same space I offer you for your personal healing journey.
After Effects of Complex Trauma
Now I have a greater understanding of myself and how trauma impacted my life. Children who have experienced complex trauma often have difficulty identifying, expressing, and managing emotions, and may have limited language for feeling states (www.nctsn.org). Trauma changed my way of view and related to others, the world and myself. In my adult life I had challenges establishing healthy boundaries in my relationships, being codependent, having constant self-doubt and lack of self-esteem. I was in a constant search of validation in my personal and professional relationships. The fear of abandonment and rejection kept me in a constant state of hypervigilance and trust issues. The feeling of not “being good enough” had me searching for more external achievements and turned me in a perfectionist and some other traits from the “imposter syndrome”. The toxic shame kept me in a fear-shame bind that paralyzed me experiencing discomfort, feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness. Shame keeps you from being seen and live your best life, avoiding sharing your gift and talents with the world.
If you experience one or more of the above symptoms, know that you are not alone and those can be aftereffects of complex trauma. We are here to help!
Let me show you how…